I’m still not over Jay Bounce’s death. Cathy says I’ve gone past denial, anger, and bargaining, and now into acceptance, but this morning, on the way to work, the facade didn’t take, and I found myself once again fighting back tears. Jay would’ve hated me moping like this, but last night – Danny, Mic, S, Cathy and myself celebrating Jay’s legacy at Tazza Cafe, one of our favorite hangouts – really stuck it to me. Hard.
Jay loved being a DJ – it wasn’t lucrative, he just did it for the love of the music – and I want to honor him with these words. I know it’s hard letting go, but I think it’s also healthy to know that Jay lives on in my heart and the hearts of all the people he’s touched.
I love ya, Big Guy. I know you’ll always be there.
[audio:Deborah_Gibson_Anytime.mp3]ANYTIME (I AM THERE)
Deborah Gibson
Anytime you laugh, anytime you cry
Anytime you hear a sound
When you’re on the grass, lying on the ground
Anytime you wash your hands, I’ll be around
I’ll be there on the baseball field
Though I’m well concealed
I’ll be out there cheering
I’ll be there in the books you read
It is guaranteed
I’m not disappearing fast anytime
No, not anytime
And I am there each morning
I am there each fall
I am present without warning
And I’m watching it all
Yes, I’m watching it all
Oh, and I am there in music
I am there in the sky
I don’t know why this thing did happen
But this much is clear
Anytime or anywhere
I am there
Anytime you pray, anytime you fight
Anytime you’ve gained a pound
Anytime it’s day, anytime it’s night
Anytime the earth moves, I’ll be around
I’ll be there in the maple trees
I am summer breeze on a perfect evening
I’ll be there when you celebrate
When the world seems great, I’ll be waiting by your side
Anytime, yes, anytime
And I am there each morning
I am there each fall
I am present without warning
And I’m watching it all
Yes, I’m watching it all
Oh, and I am there in flowers
I am there in snow
I don’t know why this thing happened
But this much is clear
Anytime you cry, anytime you sing
For anything…
I am there each morning
I am there each fall
I don’t know why this thing did happen
But this much is clear
Be aware I am there
I am there
I am there
I am there…
I am there
I am there
I am there…
I know you’re there, Jay. Godspeed.